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Sin and Sinner

The sky was clear, everything is set. I stepped out from my room to go to my grandma house. There's several equipment i need to return after my camp. Everything look the same, the UTM buildings, the sky, the traffic and everything. However, my heart feel so unrest. There's something missing, something is not right.. but what is it? I reached the bus stop, ders several girls there, but i dun care although they speak quite loud. There's something bigger i need to settle, something that puzzled in my heart.

After i bought my bus ticket, i saw a crazy person. He kept smiling although he's insane, is he happy to live that way? Although i looked at him with "eww" in my mind, but i still gave a second thought about wat defines happiness. i took that chance to look deep inside myself, what is the reason for my un-easy-ness. I did found a clue but yet an answer.. it was my own restriction..

I went up another bus, this time, rapidkl. I sat down on d chair, and try to relax myself.. until my eyes suddenly catched a figure of old chinese lady.. i wonder why nobody offered their seat to her? She must b in vain now.. so, i decided to give up my seat and let her have it. Just after she sat down, i felt like i have done d right thing, my heart jumped for joy. And when i heard she said "thank you", it feels better than someone gave you rm 1000 for free.

When i stood up, i could clearly see everything happened in that bus, from some couples in school uniform flirting in d back of d bus to the small kids on their moms lap. Those kids was so innocent. Their eyes sparkled like jewels, it reminds me of myself when i was young.. however, my eyes now have a dark look, it didn't shine.. i wonder why.. is it because i am a sinner? this is when i remember everything bad i did in the past, the flashback happened not more than a few seconds but it feels like a few minutes. I know why i feel unrest now.. it is because i'm acting in a different way than my normal self.. for that i have found the answer, i feel a lot at ease..

I took a closer look into a boy eyes, there's nothing evil there, i could feels sincerity and pureness from him. i could let my guard down for a while. Seriously, when i'm living in this world, i have to keep my guards on although it really is tiring to do it. I just wish for a place that i could live happily and nothing to worry about but i guess it wont come true.. cos wherever there's prosperity, an evil entity want to have a piece of it too.. if i cant have it in d real world, at least i could have it in my self.

Nothing To Say

I got exam next week.. and this weekend i'm going to a camp! XD

OMG! I'm tagged again XD but this timei will answer it, thankz to Yanz

Here's d stuff

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged

1. At what age do you wish to marry? - 25
2. Which football match do you wish to enjoy on spot? - Malaysia Vs Brazil
3. Where is the place that you want to go the most? - Japan
4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be? - 10 more chance like this periodically every hour
5. Do you believe you can survive without money? - If i dont have, i'll just make some
6. What are you afraid to lose the most? - Islam
7. If you win $1 million, what would you do? - Give my parent a quarter, Start my business with another quarter, another quarter as insurance for my business and save the last quarter
8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? - Of cos, I'll gladly do it!
9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you? - i>>tall ii>>genius iii>> leng zhai!
10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half? - SeCreT~
11. Which type of person do you hate the most? - Betrayer, BackStabber, Promise-Breaker
12. What is your ambition? - Businessman, Investor
13. Which physical part of you would you change if u get a chance to go for plastic surgery? - I Wont Perform Plastic Surgery
14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? - happiness
15. Are you a shopaholic or not? - nop, I am DOTAHOLIC!!
16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change? - Over-Confident
17. Who is your favourite artist? - RaIHaN, LinKin PaRk
18. What's your weakest point? - forgetful
19. What's the thing that you're most proud of? - MySelf
20. How tall do you wanna be? - 175 cm

I would like to tag

mei shan
tatt hoong
vincent

weird day..

today i felt so weak.. i think i'm gonna have fever later, i have sore throat now..urgh.. lotsa bad luck hit me lately T^T.. my gum feels itchy.. as if ders tooth growing.. but i already have enough teeth >_< i wonder why... maybe i need to pluck my last tooth out...

Haih haih... i spraint my ankle yesterday.. *sigh* but today i already can walk, so, no big deal i guess :p i skipped d morning class again.. urgh .. university life is plain n boring.. high school life is way more funkier than now.. is there any company wanna hire me to become their barista? coffe bean? or starbuck maybe? i believe in my culinary school :p

My program to Astro which been suspended by the University cos of d election really put some more problem into my already-messed-up-mind. I have to call all d company, apologize to them and reset the date for the program. This is d critical part.. Jaring cant afford to entertain us on the day we selected but Mimos already agreed. The student also reject the idea of changing the date.

The problem is, we will have a lot of spare time during d program, which is not a good stuff. I'll pray hard so we could contact Astro tomorrow (we cant contact them today) and have them cover the empty slot in da morning (i wish they could support d lunch too :p ). This mean i might have to terminate Jaring from the list we're going. *sigh* I hope Iris will give a positive answer, we would like them to fill in the empty slot in the evening. just another 1 hour and half would do (-_-).

Then today, in da evening, while i was on da way to gym, i slipped and spraint my ankle.. duhhh~~~ so many bad stuff happening to me..i hope god will reward me with super luck for all these trouble.. wuuuu.. i say like this to god, He sure send me to hell ... anyway, stuff happened, i will just move on... luckily my gf is rite der beside me, HoHo.. i'm so lucky to have her :p

February

Lotsa stuff happened in February.. and most of them is not a good thing.. i'm so down that i dun even bother to online or update my blog at all.. i'm really at the lowest point of my life now.. slowly trying to fix things up.. gathering all my strength back.. i need to keep on walking even though d path is filled with thorns n hardship. I pray d best for myself.

The Past, The Present, The Future

Wise man said, yesterday is the past, take it as experience, today is present, you have to live it to the fullest and tomorrow is future, it is still uncertain of what gonna happen.

The Past
All of us keep saying they have a dark past, i too, am not an exception.. and not many of us are willing to say "hey, my past is great!" although that is what we supposed to do. Human tends to remember the bad things better than the good things, do u still remember how u felt when our parent gave us our first present? no? We jump happily even when we get a couple of candy when we are still kids but we tends to forget that happiness.. What about when the first time our parents in crucial financial state and they have to cut back almost everything just to ensure we get something to eat? Because of that, we said we are having a dark past although it's our parents that suffers the most. How many of us ever put ourselves into their shoes?
See things as a whole, not just by pieces

The Future
WE WANT MONEY! more and more money! we want to buy everything! we don't want a big house, we want LARGE HOUSES, what's more do we want? branded merchandise?
Yes, this is what we dream of everyday, a wealthy and comfortable future with never-ending money to spend. However, there is 6 billions people on earth, if every person demands the very same things, that's far too much even for earth to handle, don't you think?
This world can satisfy our need but it can't satisfy our greed..some of us already realise this world nowadays is going in wrong direction, it leads to the world destruction. When we are still a teenager, we want a world peace, but when we grow up, we will act just like the adults, some of us will try to save the world and some of us will try to destroy it for some selfish reasons.
If you want proof, then please think about this. Do you still remember when you are a kid, having fight until you punch your friend but in just 5 minutes after that, you will ask forgiveness and play together again like nothing ever happen.. But now, when we have a fight, just to say "i'm sorry" is too hard, right?
We will becomes adult sooner or later and our way of thinking will change but it is important for us to remember our feelings and how we think when we are still a young kids and teenagers. We have to carve our path in the future, with tools we get from the past..

The present
It's today, how did we live our day? Some people start with sulking mood, some people start with great energy! a refreshing morning should not be ruined by having sour face, try to keep your smile and reminds yourself in your heart by saying "i'm feeling great, i'll do great work and today gonna be a great day!". With positive attitudes, not only we will do our work positively but we will have a positive results too!
Today is the bridge between yesterday and tomorrow, to make a better tomorrow, we have to make today better than yesterday first!
This is an example, yesterday i planned to go to theme park with my friends but if i didn't make a reservation for tickets by today, how are we gonna go there by tomorrow? are we gonna reserve the ticket tomorrow and go a day after that? We are not sure what gonna comes by tomorrow... so, live your "today" by the fullest and do everything(good) you have to do!
What you can do today, you can't do by tomorrow