12 Days..of suffering..last days is d best!

12 days since my last blog post.. i have almost no chance to update my blog.. last 3 days i was casted alongside other 90 student in Sg. Semuji Agro Resort in Pahang.. i wish i could post the photo i took when i was there.. It's totally hell over there, it's a mind-washing seminar that try to brain wash my way of thinking but it's not that easy to change me though :p

On the 1st day, it was nice.. we went through 5-hours-long journey just to get there and right after we arrived, we have to unpack our stuff, get change n bath in 30 minutes before going to the hall for the "long awaited opening ceremony speeches". Thank god.. they deliver the speeches in so many dialects including Pahang, Terengganu and Kelantan.. lucky enough i could understand them cos i've a lot of fren from every state in Malaysia. However, i did saw a lot of students showing "????" faces.. haha XD

On the second day.. i mean on saturday.. it was hell.. a day starting from 6 am till 12.09 am.. filled with speeches, in-door activities, bla bla skills, and so many bla bla bla stuff.. i was sitting right at the front desk and therefore, i couldn't afford to sleep although god knows how sleepy i am during that period.. although a couple of the lectures is professional enough but the rest is so unproffessional! Even my high school teacher can persuade me better than them. i don't know what other student were thinking but as for me who was a PRS leader in my school, this camp is far from satisfaction, but they did one thing right, that is to feeeddddd us nicely with lotsa delicious food! I think i gain 2kg in 2 days though.. =X

On Sunday.. early in the morning.. 8 am.. we were divided into several group and went for an explorace! Good for my team, they picked me as the leader..i have to wear a really funny newspaper-made-bulletproof-vest and carry 3 chicken egg as the team life.. okay, i accepted and we go for our first task.. to find a metal box in Durian plantation area.. we had lost.. and wasted 30 minutes before going back on track but our team was behind 2 checkpoint from the leading team. Thanks to my teammate who were really good at team working, we manage to catch up to the other team and secure our place as "not the last place" when we reach the 4th check point because some group already lose their "eggs" while we still have all 3 of them.

Right after we found the 2nd checkpoint.. we have to make a theme for our team and sing the Sabah anthem.. i practice the "newly learn techniques from Tony Buzan book" and funnily, i could memorize the song in one go. After that, the facilitator ask us to make a "twinkle twinkle little star" song by using.. sound of toad, tiger and duck.. even though we succeed but he still mercilessly force us to across the river.. our clothes were all wet and my white shirt become yellow thanks to that XD but still, it doesn't stop us from moving forward!

On the 5th check point.. it started to rain and we have to make a set of wedding dress from newspaper.. lucky i am not the model cos i have to wear d sexy "bulletproof vest" :p the thing is.. we made a mini skirt and a tube for d girl and just a "tanjak" and "samping" for d guy. When we were halfway to finish this checpoint, the rain pouring heavily and those "wedding dress" become soggy and.. fell apart.. expecially d boy..so.. we tease them by saying "it's not even night yet, no need to undress so quickly" XD too bad bcos of the rain, the explorace was cancelled, therefore, there's no winner.. but i love this kind of activities.. hehe XD

Japan : Updates

This programme finally get an approval and everything starting to move as it should be. Some of the candidates already manage to get a few thousands worth of sponsorship. It is a great news for a programme like this. We divides the students into several groups, which consist 4-6 peoples but the number are unstable because there's cases when the candidates resigned. That is a great thing because they know they won't be abe to help much and instead of dragging others, they resign. That is a wise decision and i respect them for that.

Today, we've called several companies and we did get several positive answers.. however, there's been a problem with our laserjet printer. So, our letter can't be print out and we have to take alternate routes by printing them using our own. When we were about to feel happy about how smooth things works, here comes another problem. We have to alter the letter from Hal Ehwal Pelajar (HEP) and we're going to do it by tomorrow because several of our students going back to their hometown to get sponsorship this weekend.

Another main problem is, the Japan Room are not being used fully by our students, we provides internet connection as well as phone to make sure we have a good networking but there's only a few people using this room including me. Oh well.. i can say this room is pretty much like my own room already since i spend my time here more than i spend to sleep on my hard bed in my own room :p

Yesterday, we already received 100 copies of paperwork to be distributes among the students but sadly, only 20 copies are taken including mine. I hope things will change by next week or else we are going to list the name of those who need to be kick out first from this programme.

A Dot On A Plain Paper

Ever wonder what makes some people happy with their life although they have almost nothing? Ever wonder what makes some people unhappy with their life although they have almost everything? This question bugs me and i know a lot of other people out there are having the same question mark stuck in their head. We can assume the answer because each and every one of us have different perspective, so, the answer may vary and there's most likely there's no right or wrong answer.

I'm going to define this matter from my own perspective, it's up to you to accept it or reject it. The meaning of happiness doesn't lies on wealth, house, and many other things we thought it could give us happiness. For example, a poor man sleeping soundly in his house, enjoying his beauty sleep while the rich man couldn't close his eye, probably thinking how to settle his debt, or scared there's a robber going to come that night or probably thinking how to settle the problem in his company. This alone is enough to proof that with money, we can buy the most luxurious bed but we cannot buy the beauty of sleep.

Take a look around us, what is there? a table? chair? probably some clothes and books? okay, for the easiest example, your computer. Did you ever realise it's been there like so many years before? No? Yeah, that's because human being tends to forget what they already have and chase for thing they don't have. They did not value something they already have until they already lose it forever. Chasing something we don't possess is the same as when you are feeling thirsty, you drink some salty water from ocean. And of course, the more you drink, the thirsty-er you get.

I did not emphasize on staying where you are right now. It is fine to chase over something you don't have, go ahead, nobody will say "you can't do this" or "you can't do that" to you. It's your life and live it the way that you won't regret it in 10 or 20 years from now. Everybody wants a better life, i too, not an exception but to live a wealthy life when i have to pay my happiness for that is too much for a price. However, to live a life without wealth is not a guarantee that you will feel happy because the world these days speak in the languange of money. To find the golden mean between the wealth and happiness, is not an easy task but slowly and steadily, we will get it if we put our effort.

Life is Like a Cup of Water

A group of working adults got together to visit their University lecturer. The Lecturer was happy to see them. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.The Lecturer just smiled and went to the kitchen to get an assortment of cups - some porcelain, some in plastic, some in glass, some plain looking and some looked rather expensive and exquisite.The Lecturer offered his former students the cups to get drinks for themselves.

When all the students had a cup in hand with water, the Lecturer spoke:"If you noticed, all the nice looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal that you only want the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all you wanted was water, not the cup, but we unconsciously went for the better cups.Just like in life, if Life is Water, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold/maintain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change. If we only concentrate on the cup, we won't have time to enjoy the water in it."

cRAPping ><

It's been a really long time since the last time i crapping with my frens yo! :p Sometimes, remembering back the past when i was in secondary school gave me nostalgic feelings, i had a really cheerful life~ no stress (there is but just SPM, that could be waived, hehe), no need chase time, no need submit projects, paperwork or assignment... just some cincai made notebook =X There's one time my biology teacher... urm.. i forgot her name.. she collected all the notebook in da class and i mean ALL, which means mine too... i had a baaaaddd feelings about it but i still submitted my biology notebook though.

Okay, the next week, i felt like skipping school.. yeah.. i skipped school and enjoyed my DOTA game and pawned some noobs in Blueserver3, it was a really fine day for me and I enjoyed it until the next day... the truth is out there (stolen from X-files) sooooo...when i came to school... Yanz told me that... on the day i skipped schools, In da biology class.. the biology teacher returned all the notebook while complimenting (read commenting) on them... i was nominated as.. JUMP KING!! and she showed my notebook to the class, which is done perfectly( read poorly) by jumping pages and topics... hahaha XD

The next thing was my chemistry teacher... he was soooo funny to the max!! But at the same time.. when his mood swing 180 degree, he could be a total wicked sick! He pawned us good with some tasty jokes that make us laughed our heart out. I still remember when yanz and me always imitated his style at the back of the class because it was so funny! But the other time when his mood really bad.. the whole class shivering cos scared.. and even i failed to settle a chemical equation that usually could b done with an eye closed! and my classmate, Hazwani, she get scolded nicely because she didn't get that he's been telling that hidrochloric acid is a catalyst!!!

Overall, i still think my high school life is the best part of my life until now.. if i can turn back the time, i wanna get back to my high school life! It's very enjoying to the max!

Leadership Fragment

In our humble life, there's always times when the situation force us to make decision for a group of people, when the others just lied back and relax. They loves to follow other people decision and waited until somebody say "i wanna do this" or "i'm gonna do that". These kind of people are normal and there's a lot of them around us. Everyday, we can have fun with them, there's no problem at all but when it comes to solving a critical problem.. that's is when YOU have to take the lead when others refusing to take it.

However, mostly, in reality, a group of people will choose the most POPULAR person as the leader and that person will pass his responsibility to the B person that he HATE the most in that group. To make things worst, that B person will give his post to C person, which is anonymous guy in that group. That is one of the major reason why a group failed to show their true potential, because they do not posses a strong leadership!

To avoid this kind of situation from happening, You have to play your cards well, either you want to totally oppose the leader and take this chair or to be the mastermind behind a puppet show. Whichever the path you pick will put yourself into a lot of trouble but hang in there, there's no free lunch in this world.

OPPOSING THE LEADER

This is indeed a very risky way because there might be dissatisfaction between team members later on but with some good moves, it could save your team from breaking up.

When the leader is totally passive and unable to make make a resolve over a decision, not only once but twice or more.. This is the signal for you to take over his place because he will only get in the way for your team to walk along the path of achievement. You shouldn't take this action if the leader is active and loud because there's other way to handle them.

To steal the throne of the king, you need to cut down his henchmen first. Talk to your team one by one and tell them that you can do better than him, this is called "planting a seed". Trust me, planting a seed is important for you to get your team support later. After done with this phase, move to second phase which is to cut down the king and takeover his throne. Speak to him softly to pass his position to you in front other teammembers, there might be a little debate but not much of a fight because he is passive, which is one of the reason for you to act at the first place.

MANAGING A TEAM

When you get the throne, make sure your team is working as a TEAM! There are some people who loves to do things alone for various reason and there's others that unable to speak out their opinion at all although sometimes they have a great idea that might turn the opposite side winning! There's some people who love to talk all the time and knows no "." in their lines while some maybe too arrogant to listen to the team.

You have to tackle this situation nicely, after a careful planning the strategy for the team, give the "do things alone" guy a spesific job that only HE will do but make sure to check up on him regularly. For those who is "passive and quiet", ask them to speak out their thought and CONVINCE them that it's allright to be wrong so that they will gain a little boost in their morale. The talkative type could be easily be overpowered by politely cutting into his words politely and agreeing to what he said but with a proper addition from your opinion. When they start to shut up, you have to take control and never let them to take over the situation again.
The arrogant type is the most hard person to deal with. When they said they want it black, then they really want it black. The ebst way to deal with them is to listen and then discuss their opinion. Even if the team main strategy doesn't suit his plan, at least take something from him that WON'T hurt the team. By doing that, he will feel that the team listen to him and thus, giving his best for the team. Lastly, the most important thing in a team is for it to WORK as a TEAM.

New Year!!!

Oh!!!! I am so fucked up!!! Internet in UTM almost non existence! i have to go CC to online.. what a sad thing to do (T^T) Recently students are busy online-ing in the library and used all the available bandwith, which makes it impossible for me to online at all, but still, there's always alternatives route! ho ho ho~

31th December 2007, I went to KLCC with my frens and get saparated when we were about to enter KLCC.. the guards are closing all d entrance, wat the ..... But then, I met Qiqi and Jiaying! Oh.. They are still like before.. but what with that sexy outfit? beats me.. :p

But still, my frens n i manage to barely get into KLCC by using CAR PARK!!! and swithing lift twice, i am glad cos god give me this genius brain for me to think of a way to sneak into KLCC.. hohoho! We decided to watch WARLORDS at 11.30p.m and not gonna celebrate it outside KLCC cos there's lotsa INDON, they r so noisy n annoying to the max, i tried to tolerate them but there's too many of them to be tolerated, so, i dun give a damn about them!

Urgh.. when the movie almost started, i called my gf.. so hard to reached out! the line was busy and when i get her, I can barely listen to her.. i feel so sad.. after we talk for a while, i terminated the line and decided to call her at 12.59 p.m.. i tries to send sms to my fren but it kept on FAILING!!! omg!! i had to try to send about 10 times per sms, then only it could b sent.. bcos of this..bcos of this, my gf and i had a little fite cos of misunderstanding caused by this situation.. i'm glad cos i din have a short temper... and we manage to solve that misunderstanding shortly.. i feel so relief and yet so happy!

After that WARLORDS, we went to WANGSA MAJU and play in TBUN until 10 a.m in the morning the next day.. well, that's how i celebrate my new year though but i still happy cos i said "happy new year" to ym gf 1st out of all people (^o^)