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Sin and Sinner

The sky was clear, everything is set. I stepped out from my room to go to my grandma house. There's several equipment i need to return after my camp. Everything look the same, the UTM buildings, the sky, the traffic and everything. However, my heart feel so unrest. There's something missing, something is not right.. but what is it? I reached the bus stop, ders several girls there, but i dun care although they speak quite loud. There's something bigger i need to settle, something that puzzled in my heart.

After i bought my bus ticket, i saw a crazy person. He kept smiling although he's insane, is he happy to live that way? Although i looked at him with "eww" in my mind, but i still gave a second thought about wat defines happiness. i took that chance to look deep inside myself, what is the reason for my un-easy-ness. I did found a clue but yet an answer.. it was my own restriction..

I went up another bus, this time, rapidkl. I sat down on d chair, and try to relax myself.. until my eyes suddenly catched a figure of old chinese lady.. i wonder why nobody offered their seat to her? She must b in vain now.. so, i decided to give up my seat and let her have it. Just after she sat down, i felt like i have done d right thing, my heart jumped for joy. And when i heard she said "thank you", it feels better than someone gave you rm 1000 for free.

When i stood up, i could clearly see everything happened in that bus, from some couples in school uniform flirting in d back of d bus to the small kids on their moms lap. Those kids was so innocent. Their eyes sparkled like jewels, it reminds me of myself when i was young.. however, my eyes now have a dark look, it didn't shine.. i wonder why.. is it because i am a sinner? this is when i remember everything bad i did in the past, the flashback happened not more than a few seconds but it feels like a few minutes. I know why i feel unrest now.. it is because i'm acting in a different way than my normal self.. for that i have found the answer, i feel a lot at ease..

I took a closer look into a boy eyes, there's nothing evil there, i could feels sincerity and pureness from him. i could let my guard down for a while. Seriously, when i'm living in this world, i have to keep my guards on although it really is tiring to do it. I just wish for a place that i could live happily and nothing to worry about but i guess it wont come true.. cos wherever there's prosperity, an evil entity want to have a piece of it too.. if i cant have it in d real world, at least i could have it in my self.

Nothing To Say

I got exam next week.. and this weekend i'm going to a camp! XD

OMG! I'm tagged again XD but this timei will answer it, thankz to Yanz

Here's d stuff

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged

1. At what age do you wish to marry? - 25
2. Which football match do you wish to enjoy on spot? - Malaysia Vs Brazil
3. Where is the place that you want to go the most? - Japan
4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be? - 10 more chance like this periodically every hour
5. Do you believe you can survive without money? - If i dont have, i'll just make some
6. What are you afraid to lose the most? - Islam
7. If you win $1 million, what would you do? - Give my parent a quarter, Start my business with another quarter, another quarter as insurance for my business and save the last quarter
8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? - Of cos, I'll gladly do it!
9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you? - i>>tall ii>>genius iii>> leng zhai!
10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half? - SeCreT~
11. Which type of person do you hate the most? - Betrayer, BackStabber, Promise-Breaker
12. What is your ambition? - Businessman, Investor
13. Which physical part of you would you change if u get a chance to go for plastic surgery? - I Wont Perform Plastic Surgery
14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? - happiness
15. Are you a shopaholic or not? - nop, I am DOTAHOLIC!!
16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change? - Over-Confident
17. Who is your favourite artist? - RaIHaN, LinKin PaRk
18. What's your weakest point? - forgetful
19. What's the thing that you're most proud of? - MySelf
20. How tall do you wanna be? - 175 cm

I would like to tag

mei shan
tatt hoong
vincent

weird day..

today i felt so weak.. i think i'm gonna have fever later, i have sore throat now..urgh.. lotsa bad luck hit me lately T^T.. my gum feels itchy.. as if ders tooth growing.. but i already have enough teeth >_< i wonder why... maybe i need to pluck my last tooth out...

Haih haih... i spraint my ankle yesterday.. *sigh* but today i already can walk, so, no big deal i guess :p i skipped d morning class again.. urgh .. university life is plain n boring.. high school life is way more funkier than now.. is there any company wanna hire me to become their barista? coffe bean? or starbuck maybe? i believe in my culinary school :p

My program to Astro which been suspended by the University cos of d election really put some more problem into my already-messed-up-mind. I have to call all d company, apologize to them and reset the date for the program. This is d critical part.. Jaring cant afford to entertain us on the day we selected but Mimos already agreed. The student also reject the idea of changing the date.

The problem is, we will have a lot of spare time during d program, which is not a good stuff. I'll pray hard so we could contact Astro tomorrow (we cant contact them today) and have them cover the empty slot in da morning (i wish they could support d lunch too :p ). This mean i might have to terminate Jaring from the list we're going. *sigh* I hope Iris will give a positive answer, we would like them to fill in the empty slot in the evening. just another 1 hour and half would do (-_-).

Then today, in da evening, while i was on da way to gym, i slipped and spraint my ankle.. duhhh~~~ so many bad stuff happening to me..i hope god will reward me with super luck for all these trouble.. wuuuu.. i say like this to god, He sure send me to hell ... anyway, stuff happened, i will just move on... luckily my gf is rite der beside me, HoHo.. i'm so lucky to have her :p

February

Lotsa stuff happened in February.. and most of them is not a good thing.. i'm so down that i dun even bother to online or update my blog at all.. i'm really at the lowest point of my life now.. slowly trying to fix things up.. gathering all my strength back.. i need to keep on walking even though d path is filled with thorns n hardship. I pray d best for myself.